It's Official!

No, not my relationship status. HAHAHA. It's official, I have already enlisted/enrolled/paid for my 1st term in UP! I AM OFFICIALLY A UP STUDENT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! YES, I am that happyyyyyy!!! :))

When I passed my GPAT, I was not able to hide my excitement and told everyone beside me that I am going to UP! But then, I read those words which says, "CONDITIONALLY ACCEPTED." Heart was broken (a little bit) but was hopeful because I am finally a step closer to my dream.

When I failed my 1st Proficiency Exam, I was scared. What if I don't pass the retake? What if work becomes too busy that I need to miss workshops. But thanks to my ever amazing SCQV and ITs (Hi Ge, Ima/Inah, Randy/Ezra), I was able to attend ALL my review classes. YAY FOR THAT!!!

But nothing beats the happiness I felt when I read my name in the LIST OF ADMITTED STUDENTS. Called my mom and told her, "I AM FINALLY GOING TO UP!!!" in the happiest and most excited tone. If heaven do exists, that's pretty much what I felt during that time. Exage for some, but that's the feeling that I won't probably forget. EVER.

Today, it becomes more official!

They call it Form 5 in UP :)

And yes, CRS is their (or our?) version of AISIS (Atene0).

And no, you can't login using that password, it has already been changed ;)

Oh God, thank you po sa dami ng blessings!!! :D You're the best! And for our deal, I promise to keep it forever and ever :D

YES, I AM GOING TO UP!!!! :D:D:D

Max and Naomi

May has been very busy with Accounting/Calculus/Statistics workshops that I needed to attend 4 times a week (Thank God I passed) + the 3 COs of our 2 markets (Hi Alex, good job!) that were completed in 2 weekends, one of which was the Mother's Day, that my long-overdue 90210 Season 4 Finale was put on hold.

Priorities were made and there were a number of Season Finales that I need to watch first. HAHA. Grey's Anatomy was actually of high priority since I risked watching it the night before of my Proficiency Exam retake.

I don't think a lot of people still watch 90210. I am one of the few who continuously watch it even after College and though I don't like it as I used to be, I don't hate it either.

But their finale was one of their best episodes for me for one simple reason: Max did not marry Madison! (YAY!!!!) Well, George did not marry Lemon but it didn't give me that yay feeling I got when Max went out of the Church, sat beside Naomi and told her he loves her ♥

Poor Madison. The way she was portrayed, she seems like Ms. Perfect.

I was never a Naomi fan. She's this spoiled brat, rich kid, who always gets the hot boys kind of girl. But with Max, she is different. They are the complete opposite of each other and that's what made them special. Or maybe, that what makes me think that Max loves Naomi for who she is.

In HS, Naomi showed up in an Avatar costume to prove to Max that she really loves him and she will do everything for him <3

Max would also tutor Naomi (since he's the nerd one). He even took the blame on Naomi's plagiarized paper in Season 3 Finale

GRABE KINIKILIG AKO!!! ♥♥♥

Naomi: I'm sorry. I'm really sorry, Max. I am just so, so sorry. I have been sitting here trying to think of ways to apologize

Max: Naomi, I didn't marry Madison.

Naomi: What?

Max: I couldnt marry Madison when I am stil in-love with you.

Naomi: But.. Why did you tell me that you were drunk. Why did you lie with me? Why didn't you tell me you still love me when I asked you yesterday?

Max: I wanted to. But I woke up that morning after the bachelor party and I thought I'm marrying a great girl. I can't possibly ruin my wedding... And you did.

Naomi: Yeah, I totally did.

Max: When you kissed me at the rehearsal, it was all that I can do to pretend that it did not mean anything. And I wanted to trust that you still have feelings for me. But I know you Naomi, you feel one thing in one minute, then another in the next. But when you burst into that Church like an idiot, that's when I knew it was real.

Naomi: Of course it's real.

♥

I really hope that they won't take Max away again and that he and Naomi lives happily ever after. More like Nathan and Haley from One Tree Hill ♥

And I am baaaaack :)

Life has been pretty crazy for the past few months that I need to hibernate from blogging and tweeting publicly. BUT I AM BAAAAAACK :)

Can't wait for school to start! Yay! :)

On Mother's Day

My mom is probably the most important person in my life. That, that is a fact. In my mother's day "note" to her, I wrote that I love her more than I loved "him" and more than I will love anybody and anything else in this world. And that is the absolute truth.

Growing up, I haven't had the chance to share with her all my boy problems. Maybe because I knew she was strict. School should always be on top of my priority list - not love or some random boy. But that didn't make me any less closer to her. I made a promise to myself that never will I let her or dad down. I may not be a perfect daughter, but my love for my parents will always be somewhere near perfection.

The last 6 months of my life have been the toughest ones I've had so far. And I would not have survived it without her. A big part of the Rach who I've become after all those storms was because of her. She stayed with me and assured me every single day of how much she loves me and how blessed I am that I did not end up with him.

I made a lot of mistakes in my life but when I realized that they were mistakes, mom never rubbed it in my face. She waited for me to tell her, "Mom, you were right."

I knew you were right when you told me that I should not have given him deadline to choose between me and her. And that another time when you told me that I should not have bailed on him while he was confused. I knew you were right when you asked me to give up on him when he made that decision almost 6 months ago and that time when you told me that I do not owe it to her any explanation about what happened.

Though I didn't listen to you half of the time, you allowed me to make those mistakes in my life. Not because you gave up giving me your pieces of advice, but because I know that you want to learn on my own. So that next time, you're assured that I will never allow myself go through anything like that again.

Thank you! Thank you for replying back to my text messages no matter how random they are when we're not together. Thank you for listening to me rant and cry and curse in all aspects of my life - work, boys, people I don't like. Thank you for hugging me tight and assuring me that everything's gonna be okay when my world was falling apart. Thank you for always checking on me when you know I'm lutang or sabaw because of too much crying. Thank you for making sure I am okay - ALL THE TIME. I could have given up on life and love and career if yo were not around to remind me of my dreams and the things I still want to do and experience someday. And for that, thanks a lot!

You know I'll keep on making mistakes, right? Can I just ask one thing? Stay with me? Because with you being around, I know that no matter what happens, I will be fine :)

Happy Mother's Day, mom! :) Love you! :)

On Love Life and Jewelry

I think this entry is for all the people who can't give back to their "fake pearl necklace" to their daddy. Know that he will give you something better!

A father loves his little girl, so he gives her a plastic toy necklace made to look like a string of pearls. Just something cute, no biggie. But the girl freaks out, she puts on her plastic necklace and refuses to take it off. She wears it to bed, she bathes in it, it never leaves her neck. Soon it starts to get all gross and her neck is turning green, and things are getting out of hand.

So moved is the father, that he decides to give the daughter a real pearl necklace. So he finds his daughter, and he holds the real pearls in his hand behind his back, telling his daughter that he has a surprise for her, then he holds out his other hand, and he asks his daughter to take off her favorite necklace and give it to him.

The daughter runs away crying! How could my father ask me to give up this thing I love so much. If he knew me, and understood this situation, he would never ask me to surrender the one thing I care about most. But she knows she can’t hide forever, so she gathers up her courage, and with tears in her eyes, she hands the father the old cheap plastic necklace. Only then does she see what the father has in store.

On surrendering, it’s not about what you’re giving up, it’s about the real and authentic and much more valuable thing you’re receiving. It’s about asking God to take away something you want, to make room for the thing that He wants for you. This is a prayer He will honor, and that you won’t regret.

Full entry here.

How do you know he's "The One"

Cat Juan answered this in her entry.

In her words, which is also my favorite line in her entry,

And that is when I think you know, when every part of you says that a life without this person just isn’t an option and, just as importantly, they say the same about you.

It wasn't love at first sight or second sight or nth sight. Actually, it was not even like. I did not like him or even want to work with him. He was that guy, the guy who uses an entire day to solve a critical defect. I always have to check on him if he will be joining our very early (for our company's standards) call. He actually missed our first one. The day we were introduced, I did not feel my heart beating fast nor butterflies in my tummy. I did not want to be friends with him either. Whenever I'd see him around, I'd always think if I need to say hi or nod. For me (at first), he was not ready for the job. Why do we have him if we can get someone more experienced than him?

I had a lot of questions in my mind when we we started working. And if the present me would time travel and talk to the July 2011 me and tell her that this guy that you don't like (but don't hate either) will change your life in the next 6 months, she will just answer back, "Weh? Di nga?" That impossible!

But I guess that's what makes life exciting - the unknown future ahead of us, that little surprises that you've never imagined, those little moments that will change the course of your life.

I will not say that I regret going through that. I guess that's how I learn - by experience. It was a painful journey but I am already at this point where I can't no longer feel the pain or the hate or the sadness. I'm just glad it's over. That after all those sleepless nights and down days, I can finally stand on my own.

I am excited to what lies ahead. Sabi ko nga, if he was the definition of ultimate happiness before I met Disneyland, what more for the right person? I probably have to think more awesome words than ultimate and happiness for he will be one of those amazing people I will probably meet in my life. And because I have already let go of a love that isn't mine, there's a vacant space that's totally reserved for the right one :)

At this point, I can't accept any more part-time person in my life. Kung landi lang gusto mo, sorry, I don't have any space for you.

Note to Self (from Unka Glen)

One of the best things I've read. From one of Unka Glen's responses. Read the full version here.

You deserve so much better, and the fact that this isn’t totally clear to you, that’s a problem. You deserve to be with someone who tells you the truth, even when it’s hard for you to hear. You deserve to be with someone you could trust with your whole future, and the future of your children. You deserve to be with a man of his word. You deserve to be with a man who looks at you and decides the sun shines out of your butt, and there is no other woman on the face of the planet that can compare to you.

Tell God you don’t want to settle for second-best, in yourself, and in your future husband, and watch what happens.

Something to remind me that I ALWAYS deserve someone better. And no, I won't settle for second-best :)